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27/9/2011 - Heavy Rain day

Heavy Rain still have to bath with cold water

that is crazy man!!

i already feel like getting sick soon

while i bath with cold water i feel like i'm freeze

many of my friend was sick

i afraid i will sick too

please pray for me ya^^

i were stuck in a trouble recently

i have to worried about my Uni thing

i afraid they will bar me if i didn't attend the lecturer class

i afraid they will have a quiz when i'm not around

i afraid my EEP mark will become very low because i couldn't attend 3 classes that she had fixed

i have never have a chance to take a breath when i start live alone in UUM

everything i have to decide myself

sometimes i just want to have some opinion from my parents but they will ask my to decide myself

once i enter UUM i never get enough rest until now

1st, i afraid i can't adapt well here... (FINALLY SETTLE)

2nd, i afraid they will reject my PTPTN... (FINALLY SETTLE)

3rd, i have to think a win-win situation for my lecturer class... (FINALLY SETTLE)

4th, my EEP lecturer suddenly fixed the EEP class date when i'm not around

i try to negotiate with her b4, but she wouldn't accept our opinion everything just follow what she want and like to do... (HAVEN'T SETTLE) ( I was thinking that if i can get a B for this subject then really have to thanks god )

5th, the 4th haven't settle then 5th came... i just heard that lecturer might have quiz in the week when i'm not around.. (HAVEN'T SETTLE)

i really want to shout DAMN !!!

what happen?????????

y everything come in the same moment??

the EEP and the quiz only have to postpone one week or earlier one week then everything is settle!!!

i don't think i can enjoy my HK trip during that moment too

i'm really tired

i really feel like i have more than 1000kg item on my shoulder

no matter i sleep how many hour 

i still feel like get not enough rest

i know i couldn't affort but i still have to carry myself

i was like...don't want think anymore

anything just let go

quiz then quiz... I HAVE NO MARK LO!!!

EEP then EEP..... GET "C" THEN JUST GET "C" LO~

if they really want bar me.... THEN JUST BAR LA!!!!

i don't want to think anymore~~~

SHIT UNIVERSITY!!!

SHIT EEP lecturer!!!

i contempt u!!!!

这里的生活-first week

HELLO~~~everybody

让我来报告一下自己的最新境况

已经在UUM一个星期多了

好像已经习惯了这里的生活

会自己找节目

没有节目时就睡觉

还记得刚开始时差不多天天哭叻 

也不懂自己到底哭什么 =.="

不过在这里谁不是这样呢？

大家表面上装的很开心

其实私底下哭得要死

只是大家都很有默契

没有揭穿每人心中的这个小秘密

不过如果现在还有人在哭的话就要打了噢

那么多天了还不习惯吗？

还没认识到朋友吗？

可能现在的朋友不像以前中学时代的朋友那么好聊

但这就是人生的一个考验

人就是需要常常跟不同的人生活

make deal with difference type of people

其实在这里我还并没有特别的开心

但还好也没有特别的不开心

我想我还需要努力加强人与人之间的联系

这是一堂我告诉我自己必修的课

加油吧！Gail！

上天给你的考验必有它的原因

我相信我可以在这里发光法热

即使不能让所有的人都认识我

但也要让一半以上的人知道有我 Gail或者是zhenzhen的存在！

照目前状况看来

我离我的目标不远了！ 

UUM life

Hello UUM and goodbye Puchong
I just had my brunch in Puchong
and i will have my dinner in Kedah later and next few month and so on
byebye to my family
byebye to my friend ( not for those going UUM with me) xD
byebye to my house, my bed and blablabla......

how to describe my feeling now?
feeling excited? NO!
feeling sad? NO!
just feel like going to start a new life in a place that i never visit before
and i going to stay there for three years
well, that is challenging!
but i know i can do well

thanks to all my friend
and i will miss u all too^^
Don't forget me ya..
when i having sem break must ask me out yamcha xD

u can go visit my friend's blog : Candy
she describe us well there..
Thanks!

SORRY

我相信很多人都觉得我变了
其实不只是你们
连我自己也觉得自己变了
我变得有点无理取闹
我很讨厌这样的自己
但我真的控制不住自己

我不想为自己找借口
既来之，则安之！
说得容易啊！
但其实做起来很难
我每每只要想到这件事
就不由自主地忧虑，
不由自主地暴躁起来
不过忍受不住的朋友没关系
你们很快就不会看见这样的我了
一直很想向你们说声对不起
忍受了我这么久
今天借助这个机会对大家说
“对不起”

那个女人

有个女人爱着你
那个女人她认真的爱着你
每天就像影子一样
跟随着你的脚步
那个女人微笑着
却也在流泪

还要多久多久
你啊
让我独自这样注视着
这像风一样的爱情
这像是在乞求的爱情
还要继续多久你才能够爱我呢~~  OH

稍为的靠近一点
稍为的
靠近你一步 却又后退了两步
爱着你的我 现在就在你身旁
那个女人在哭着

那个女人的个性很仔细
所以在学着怎么微笑
许多对朋友都不能倾诉
那些话太多了
那个女人的心
充满了泪水

所以那个女人
对于你
一样如此爱着
这样的傻瓜
又是这样的傻瓜
难道拥抱我一次也不行吗~~  OH

我想得到爱
你啊
每天在心中 在内心里面
用力的呼喊
那个女人今天也在你的身旁~~  OH

你知道那个女人就是我吧
还是你明瞭却还装不知道呢
你不会懂的 傻瓜似的你啊

还要多久多久

你啊

让我独自这样注视着

这像傻瓜一样的爱情

这像是在乞求的爱情

还要继续多久你才能够爱我呢~~  OH

稍为的靠近一点

稍为的

靠近你一步 却又后退了两步

爱着你的我 现在就在你身旁

那个女人在哭着

stop working

好啦，从4月开始期待到现在
终于没有做工了
刚开始那两个月真的很痛苦
无形的压力无时无刻直冲我来
从什么都不会
什么都不敢问
什么都不会做
到了现在
大致上都会了
夸张的是连开上司玩笑都敢了

昨天终于是工作的最后一天
原来不知不觉我工作了这么久
这可以说是我最长的一份工作
感谢大家的器重 *虽然没有很器重*
感谢大家的栽培 *本身是学了很多*
感谢大家的爱戴 *也就只有那几个*
很诚实的说这不是一件很好的公司
也不是什么大公司
但至少我也学到了不少
当然也受了不少气啦
那个国家的族人好像都看我不顺眼
*我会自我幻想成你们妒忌我的美貌...哈哈 xD*

好啦！回归正题
没有工作的日子还真得有点不习惯
虽然以前每天迫使自己在固定的时间起床上班
虽然每天早上都会赖床
虽然每天都会想各式各样的借口请假
但现在感觉好奇怪
没有闹钟还是会在固定时间起床
一样还是会赖床 -.-    这没差！
头脑竟然自动的想着工作的事情

And now....the most important thing is...
I'm going to Langkawi tomorrow
and i will go for one week...
haha...all of us sot liao...
the small island can play for one week??
don't worry....
i will let you know once i come back from langkawi
will update soon... *I think so!*








Lastly : For those who haven't know
I get BBA in UUM which is in Kedah campus
so...
I'm leaving soon
this is my last month is KL
Please ask me out
i hope to meet u guys before i leave!

something is changing

i feel something is changing

昨天在公司受了一点委屈

如果是以前的我早就沉不住气

当然我绝对不会大吵

但很可能会立即走人

但那天虽然我很生气

但并没有我想象的那么生气

我有种不想和无知的人吵的感觉

是因为出来社会

明白了在社会就是要受委屈

还是什么？

为什么？？？！！！

为什么上天要给我这样的考验？
我知道与众不同的遭遇
能凸现每个人的不同之处
但是！这样的遭遇我宁愿不要
因为这样
我已经不能好好的休息
不能好好的进行日常生活
因为这样
我真的不知道该怎么走下去了

其实有那么一瞬间
真的只有那么一瞬间
想就这样结束了

别问为什么
我不会说
但如果你给我一个安慰的拥抱
我会在你怀里放心的哭泣










我该怎么支撑下去？

stress..

i don't want just let go without any reason...can I?
WHY?Why?wHy?whY?why?
I hate this kind of feeling..
u just annoying me

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damn stress recently..
i scare did something wrongly and bring trouble to them
i feel happy that u all trust me well
but i have no confidence at all
I feel like what i did is wrong and unsure
Can i just resign and leave it?

BUT!!!
i like this job..
and u all are friendly and teach me a lot of thing
although u know i have no working experience at all
still a stupid newbie..
but u didn't complain or grumble to me

the feeling of stress make me wanna go back school study
i like the time when i'm still in batu 8
i don't need to think for money each month
i don't need to count my daily usage
i don't need to think any mistake i made will affect to company
what i need to think only my result
such a enjoy life...

I wanna start my Uni life start from now!!
working make me stress...

LTNC

long time no update my blog...

not forget to update

i still come and check everyday

but just...don't want to update

i have to idea what to write

although i have something want to share with u guys

but i just don't want to write out here

just some kind of feel that can't explain well

working full time recently...

going to third week already

i have to admit 

working full time is not earn that much compared to part time

i work part time for not more than 2 weeks

but i can earn more than full time salary for a month

and i really learn more in this few weeks

i not scare to work more, work over time or something else

i just scare i can't do well

i know u r putting high expectation on me

but i really scare i can't do that good on ur expectation

salary is that important??

if u r having a high salary job but u can't learn anything 

                    OR

if u r having a low salary job but u can learn more and it will be useful in ur future

what will u choose????

what is ur decision????